Don’t make me feel like a lamp post..

You know the feeling where you went out with your friend, which at first supposed to be just you and your friend but suddenly received addition of several people whom you do not really like or even know and worst of all, the partner of your friend? Seriously, this situation sucks. Like real bad sucks. Sucks until you feel like killing your friend and his or her partner than commit suicide kind of sucks. I hate it when people bring friend along when they are meeting their loved one. Like what is the point of them bringing the friend just to ignore them later? That is so inconsiderate and insensitive.

For me, if you want to go out with your someone, just go out by yourselves. Not with bunch of friends that you will just ditch later once that particular someone arrives. Then, PDA in front of your friend is so not needed. We know you guys love one another but you don’t have to show it in front of us. We just don’t care, or jealous. It is just plain obnoxious. Plus, you could bring your partner along when you are going out with your friend, only if the partner is known or is the friend of your friends. If not, just keep it to yourself please. I have enough friends I think and I don’t want to add more but I will never get close since I am known to be one hell of a snatcher, although I don’t do that.. anymore. Huhu.

Seriously, a friendly outing can turn into a silent feud if the person who suggested it is so not sensitive and person-centred. I have been into several occasions and I hope for no more. I had enough of keeping my anger. Let just hope I won’t lash out to the person and just walk away from the whole outing. The, you have reach my limit and if that going to ruin our friendship, I just don’t mind. Seriously, I need real friend, not FFB or insensitive friend or just friend.

*annoyed*

Please, I detest such behaviour..

Okie, recently I talked to my girlfriends. The topic: Boyfriends who asked for the girl’s social networking access information. For me, I seriously despise this kind of behaviour since it is considered as a breach of privacy for me. Who gave the boyfriend the right to control the girlfriend’s life since they are not legally bound aka married? This kind of boyfriend for me is super insecure and does not have trust in people as well as themselves. What a shame to constantly live in paranoia. Everyone has their right on how to live their life. Even when you are married, that woman still has the right to have her privacy. Hello, it is not like all women who have privacy thought of being infidel. Haish..

Another annoying fact about this kind of BF is that they will never give the girl the access to their account however. So, it is a loss to the girl and a gain for the guy. So not fair. In the end, the guy is the one who found someone else and ditch the girl for the new one. I seriously hate this kind of guys. They are such a disgrace to the male population. Boo to guys who do this.

*je deteste*

Mencuba sesuatu yang baru..

Ini post bahasa melayu aku yg ketiga kot. Seingat aku la. Apa-apa pun, aku nak tulis dalm bahasa melayu sebab bersesuaian ngan topic yang aku nak tulis ni. Semester ni aku masuk kokurikulum dalam bahasa melayu. Untuk menambah kesengsaraan, sastera bahasa melayu *bunyi suara pompuan menjerit dlam citer seram*. Bak kata org putih, literature la. Secara serius, korg tak tahu betapa susahnya aku nak tulis dalam bahasa melayu ni. Dah berapa lama dah aku x menulis apa-apa dalam bahasa melayu, alih-alih amik ko, sastera bagai. Mmg sengsara okie *tambah lagu sedih drama bersiri melayu kat sini*. Tapi takpa, aku redha ngan ketentuan hidup ini. Camtu kan ayat.. hebat ko Sai..

Okie, semalam aku pi kelas pertama, dan cuba teka? Aku sorg je yg dtg, org len haram. En. Solihin, jurulatih aku pn pelik nape takde org yang dtg. Aku pn gtau la dia yg ikut system klas bukan kat situ, tp kat tempat len. Aku pun tau sbb aku telefon dia. Kalu x, aku pn sama cam org len gak la. Tunggu punya tunggu sampai kul 8 lebih-lebih skit last last kitorg mulakan je la klas tu. Dia terang pasal markah dan sume hal-hal teknikal tu, pastu aku tulis nama dan balik. Huhu.. sumpah cam terbuang je masa aku kat situ. Takpa la, kurang-kurang dapat kehadiran kan.

Apa-apa pun, sekarang ni aku tengah pikir, camne aku nak tulis 3 sajak bahasa melayu? Klu sajak English pn aku tak bape nk sure nk wat camne, ni kan plak bahasa melayu. Abis la..

*tgh pikir*

disagreement and what i would do about it

in life, we cannot be satisfied by everything. we will have disagreement due to the variation of mindset and way of thinking. this variation is the one which colours the world and make it more interesting to live in. a very varied and nonuniform world. imagine life with everyone having the same way of thinking. it only come to a word and it is BORING! so people, disagreement is normal and we should have disagreement in order to feel alive. okie, is it me or the last sentence sounds like words from a psychopath who constantly looking for excitement in the world in order to feel alive? who cares, as long as i state my points.

i also, being a human, or psychopath (who knows?) do have disagreements. let it be family, friends or policy maker. how i handle it? well, let me just say i am a person with a white colour personality. i hate conflicts. i hardly confront people for anything that i am not satisfied of. so, i would finally end up keep quiet about the whole situation and just accept what will happen next. i would only stand up about the thing if only i feel it is worthy. if not, i would only disagree in my heart..

*whatevs*

Life sucks..

OMG, seriously life sucks at the moment. Myself is constantly bored by life. I don’t see the point of living right now. Most of the time, I stay in my room, surfing the net and interacting there. To be honest, I don’t know how many real life friend I have right now and even if I have any, they don’t really see me as someone important to them. I am just a person exist among their friends. Seriously, I don’t mean to offend anyone but that is the truth I am seeing currently. I am a friendless person.

Yeah, I used to say maybe I don’t really need anybody besides myself in this world. But, after a while, I seriously feel lonely. As if I am the only person in my world. I don’t talk to people. I got no one to turn to. I am sad most of the time, which I hid it quite good since nobody realises it or maybe, I am just ignored. I don’t know but one thing for sure, life sucks currently.

*sucking away my youth*

No feelings towards you anymore.

Last semester I had tortured you guys, my readers with my rambles on a particular person that I have a great sense of liking or should I say, crush of a lifetime, Tower. Tower was the reason for all the happiness, heartache, laughter, smiles and not to mention, cries. Tower was also the reason for my breakup *huhu* (T-T). Anyway, I know that Tower will graduate from this learning institution this semester and fly all the way to a different continent and stay at California for at least another 4 years to come. Well, since the incident (my breakup), I sort of lose hope in relationship. Seriously, I got no love for anyone. Love as in affection. As in partner, get it? So, I put my life focus right now is to study.

But, recently I bumped into Tower at the faculty. Maybe Tower was there to take the graduation pictures, hence the presence of photographers at various settings. Usually, upon the sight of Tower, my heart will pound as hard as it could and I will get all CRAZEH!! But not this time, I just acknowledge Tower’s presence and continue doing whatever I was doing at that time. I felt nothing. Tower is now nothing more than just a person at the same place as me. No more love for Tower.

Seriously, it is weird to suddenly lose interest in someone I used to drool over. Whatever it is, I just hope Tower will be happy with the life and journey he will soon embark in a different land. Good Luck TOWER!

p/s: saw my previous crush recently. Damn, F (the codename) is ruined..

*stray away from love*

please be there..

if you guys think that this going to be a love post due to the title; the post where a person writes about his or her longing to someone he or she loves and cares so much and hope that person loves him or her back and be there where they suppose to meet; you guys are absolutely... WRONG!!! this is a post about shopping to be honest. how shopping and the title relates? here it goes..

i went to the shopping mall, alone, after settling some stuff i need to do at the post office, to buy some things that i need for the survival of myself here in my rental house. but, before that, i have a feeling that i want to look for new handphones since my current phones are safely said.. SICK and SAD.. my sister once said that my phones are having gadget AIDS because they are deteriorating slowly (whatta?!). i am buying a phone not because i want fancy phones or i want to show off, it is just i need new ones to continue living. wow, how phones effects my life. so, i went to the place where most phones are bought here in SA.

i was looking for a phone that will suit me. a person who talk less, message more. QWERTY keypad is a must. i have seen how my phones suffers due to my extensive messaging. pity them, so my new resolution is to find a phone that will not suffer much. but once i am there i am appalled..

the place is crowded by that super-trendy-phones-that-are-too-expensive-for-the-features-it-has-that-i-will-never-afford-to-have-due-to-its-nonsensical-charges-and-high-price-machines. seriously people, i think most of you know what the brand is, i am so not promoting it on my blog. seriously, they are just too much, i am left with no choice. haish, please be there, things i want the most.

*please be there*