Thursday, February 5, 2015

looking through the glass dome..

this is definitely my current situation at the work place. yeah, it has only been two working days but i have started feeling awkward about the whole thing. the thing is, the job doesn't allow me to be myself. i have to put on an act to fit within the group. they're are just polar opposite of what i am. it's not that they're not nice people, they are, but it's me. i am too weird to function normally in structured organisation. but i am willing to give this more time as i believe that time can be a good remedy to many awkward situations, this is just one of them.

anyway, a more fitting job for me is actually within the same office area but totally beyond reach. it's totally like living in a glass dome, where you can see the things you know you will do just fine, but you cannot reach it because that's not for you according to the order of nature. it sucks to be honest to see a place you know you will feel at home and a place you belong but it's not going to happen. but i won't be staying there for long because that's not my base office so the torment won't be for long.. i hope. in the mean time, i am learning to love my job. it will take some time.. please, all i need is 5 years.. then i'll take on a different journey..

Monday, February 2, 2015

it begins.. a new phase at a new place..

so, i finally began my work today. what can i say about it? well, for once, there were more than 3 people in the office. yeay to humans! so many humans! humans i can interact to when i am stuck! humans! hahahaha. well, the day began slowly, like major slow. i sat for a good one hour doing nothing, just listening and observing around. then, i was asked to do some work! yeay! something to do. ding ding, i have a presentation this wednesday right after the one day off. wow, talk about things escalated quickly.

anyway, how did i spend the day in the office? rummaging the boxes looking for parts to build robots. yup, i spend a good 3 hours to build a goddamn easy robot. i finally found out that they are in the process of moving to a new place hence the chaos. okie, pardoned. so that's it. that's how it went. everybody seems laid back and nice. i hope that's true though. i don't need another traumatic experience. then, it will be official that i need to open my own business so that i can do things my way. lol, as if i have the financial strength. god willing, in 5 more years.. hahahaha