i held on to that promise till the end..

22nd December. another date in my life that i find it hard to forget now. well, on one point it's my mum's birthday but now, it will also be your wedding anniversary. yes, on 22nd December 2013, that was the last of anything that could or might happen between us. i know i am stupid for unable to let you go despite being separated for a good 3 years, but seriously, how am i ever going to get over you easily when you had been the source of my strength for such a long time? pfft, i am such a masochist and a melancholic one.

however, i think i now realise why i remain bound to you despite that. we had that promise. the promise that we will be each other's until we truly find the one we know for us. yeah, our relationship is one heck of a weird boat and seriously, no one else should come aboard on such a ship, too rocky and constantly fighting with huge tides. but yeah, i hold on to that promise, until that day you make it official with the one you choose.

to be honest, now, i feel rather empty but one thing for sure, i feel free. i am no longer bound to you. you are now a past for me, this time for real. i am no longer carrying the burden of the past with me. i can now move on. thanks for being a part of my life and i will cherish those memories we made together, the better and the worst. treat your partner well, i know you could.

*burden lifted*