Saturday, December 5, 2009

So many time, so little to do..

Since my birthday, I have not written anything in my blog.. let me put it straight.. nothing interesting had happened in my life since my birthday.. can you imagine being in a holiday island and all I do this holiday is stay inside the house.. I don’t even go out to shopping mall just for window shopping like what I always do back then.. I have become so reserved.. and I don’t know why.. one obsession that I have add in myself is eating.. and body is taking all the harm from it.. lol.. I look terrible.. besides that, I got nothing else to do.. it has been the longest time since I last read any novel.. regardless of the language.. seriously, I need to fill this holiday with something.. so that I won’t eat so much.. haha..

One event that has happened to me which bring quite a turmoil in my mind is meeting my ex who is now my friend.. okie.. I met my ex the day before but I did not greet because I was in a rush.. besides, I know I will meet him again the next day.. and yes, I met him again.. for the first time, he saw me and say nothing.. I was aghast but I don’t think too much about it.. with the spirit of friendship, I went and greet him.. nicely.. and I was taken aback by his reaction.. he looked at me with a very reluctant look and say.. “maybe it’s about time we start acting like ex-es”.. the moment he finished his words, I went off without even saying goodbye.. damn.. what about the promise of we’re gonna stay friends although we’ve broke up.. and it all happens after more than a year the relationship ended.. which is weird.. I found out that he found someone new lately but that just can’t be the reason.. since him, I went out with three people at least.. and he also has seen a few after me.. it is just so confusing.. I don’t want to lose a friend anymore..
I want to do a lot of things okie this holiday but I just don’t know what.. and seriously im bored to death.. everything seems not very appealing to me.. what should I do?

*puzzled*

2 comments:

watip said...

sai why do i think we have lots in common?i mean nowadays i loathe going out not only during the hols but even during my times in uni. and the ex boyfie.i tink the quote is somehow true: every person we met will leave footprints forever.and some of them don't even want to leave.or maybe we are just not letting them go.and it's horrible!

junior_sysco said...

that's the reason why we r besties.. yeah, the quote is true.. some want to hold on to us while some we can't let them go cuz we want to hold them..