*blank*

it's been a while since i put up my last post.. firstly because i have no connection to the internet for the past few days.. it is killing.. life without internet.. another reason would be, im so blank.. i have no idea what to write on the blog.. besides, these days im easily touched.. like getting lowest marks in class which im used to be one of the highest.. listening and observing people reaction to problems and life matters.. but still.. i still feel so blank.. it's like my heart is an open space.. with nothing in it.. i sometimes can even determine what is my actual emotion is.. im on the verge of everything most of the time.. im not happy, sad, or whatever.. i just feel empty and blank.. nowadays, even my laugh is never known to be sincere or just an act shown to the public for their own comfort.. hehe..
during this last few days.. i've been thinking about sacrifice.. sacrifices i've made for the happiness of others.. it's been a lot.. i dunno why i did all those sacrifice for.. because, in the end, the people i had sacrifice for just hate me.. i've sacrifice my love, my work, my effort and everything for others.. but when i need them help.. none of them came.. instead i am hated for asking them to help.. life can be very unfair most of the time.. but that is just the fact... i wish i never did all those sacrifice.. and just see how life goes.. but it's too late..

*huhu*