Saturday, March 26, 2011

turning point..

i am about to make another decision in my life. a decision that may hurt others but pleases me. i dont know what to expect but i think i am determined. now, the focus is me and not other people. i had enough putting people before me and finally end up in sufferings while others rejoice in my defeat. it is time for me to get firm and finally withdraw my self from this S&M game. i am a masochist. i hurt myself to feel alive. but now, i cannot bear the pain anymore. my senses have return and it is advising me to think about myself and stop enslaving myself. yes, i am a slave to circumstances but now i am fighting for my independence. i shall be my own Abe.

*freedom from lies*